What Is Real?



Great Day — and Thank You for this Day!!

How are you all doing? Happy Spring. Spring is my favorite time of the year, representing renewal, freshness, colours, baby animals, flowers, growth, blossoming, regeneration, and chocolate. Happy Easter Bunny.  

I am called to write about what is real, and our perceptions. I find perceptions fascinating, as our perceptions can be so different day-to-day, minute-to-minute, as well as what we perceive as real. Just want to be clear that what I am writing about is my perception — based on beliefs, patterns and experiences I have had in my life — and it may not resonate for you. We all are gifted with our own perceptions of life and reality. This is what makes life so different and unique for everyone to express.

“There is my heart, and then there is you, and I am not sure there is a difference.”

A.R Asher

What I am learning and experiencing is that our perceptions, and what I think is real, changes from moment-to-moment, and it can vary due to many different influences like diet, sleep, pain, thoughts, environmental exposure, day-to-day experiences, and last but not least, psychedelic or spiritual experiences.

For example, have any of you had ‘fat and ugly’ days? This construct has been a nemesis for me for many, many years. Just yesterday (on full moon), I was feeling really uncomfortable in my skin, which typically means I’m feeling ‘fat and ugly.’ None of the clothes I put on felt comfortable, and I had this perception of looking ‘fat and ugly.’ 

Now, was my perception real? The next day (today) I feel so much better, and when I look in the mirror, I don’t see the same things as I saw yesterday. What is that? My perceptions — one day to the next — were totally different. Which one is real, or the truth? What caused my perception to be what it was yesterday? What caused my perception to be what it is today?  

“Two things you will never have to chase: true friends and true love.”

Mandy Hale                                              

After really leaning into the perceptions, and looking and feeling with more expansion — kind of like a panoramic view vs tunnel view — what came to heart was that my current parasite protocol could be influencing this experience, as well as my thoughts, beliefs and programs. Taking a step back and recognizing, with the help of some beautiful friends who so generously remind me of the amazing parts about myself, I could see that the negative, toxic thoughts about myself — were not real or true. Yes, those emotions felt ‘real’ at the time, however it is not true reality. Why is it, when I perceive others, I see beauty and amazing qualities — and at the same time I sabotage and talk shit about myself? What is real? What is true?  

How do I know?  Well I strongly feel that if my thoughts and beliefs create fear, anxiety and separation, they can’t be true. The only thing that is true is Love. How can you tell if it is Love? Or, an even better question, What is Love? For me, if the perception, thought or belief brings peace, that’s a pretty good Love gauge. I am still learning about what Love is. How can I see life through the lens of Love? How can I be Love? How can I love myself and others more? 

I understand that it is easy to get caught up in the toxic thoughts and false perceptions, there is a part of me that believes them. Getting curious about the part of me that believes them is a gift of awareness. As soon as I see it or feel it, then I know it is not real or true, because I am looking at it. The very thing that is looking through my eyes is the same thing looking through yours.  

“Love is patient, Love is Kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, it always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 

Definition of Love, Corinthians

I believe that I can always trust my heart, and it does take courage to follow my heart, as sometimes the ways of the heart do not make sense to the mind. We are all worthy of peace, joy, laughter and bliss, no matter what we think we have done and don’t deserve. My wish for you is to always believe the beautiful thoughts about yourself and life, for they are the light and the truth. Yes, go ahead and think something wonderful about yourself, and believe that you have gifts to offer to the world. What are your gifts? Rejoice and step into your gifts — as the world needs them and you.  

Have you heard of the term False Humility? This is when you don’t give yourself credit for your gift. For example, when you share something with someone that had a miraculous impact on them and they thank you, you say oh it wasn’t me, it was spirit moving through me. This is false humility. You did it, you had the wisdom and courage to listen to your instincts and assist someone else. If you feel called to share, I would love to know what your gift is. I recently discovered a gift of mine, and that is I have a gift of speaking words to people that empower them in the perfect moment. They said I told them at the perfect time, and it was just what they needed to hear. So, so amazing!! When I claim this as a gift, I feel so empowered that I can have that impact.  So please send me a quick email and share with me what your gift is. Don’t be shy 🙂


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Much love and appreciation to all of you,






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