How do we move forward when we feel completely overwhelmed with toxic thoughts, our life feels like it is going to shit, and with fearful thoughts of doom and gloom? We can move into the energy of fighting it off and resisting that it is even there. Using extreme willpower to stop the toxic thoughts, stop being angry, and stop taking our shit out on others. Riding the waves of extreme outbursts of anger, guilt, shame, promising ourselves and others that it won’t happen again, and only a couple days later, it happens again. Feeling like utter poop, and the cycle begins again. To me, this is the definition of hell. I am using anger as an example, and many other things can be added in here, like drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling etc. To me, this is an example of trying to slay those parts of ourselves that we don’t want to experience or accept. This cycle will appear in your medicine journey, magnified 100x, so that you really see it and there is no escaping. Hence why people say they had a ‘bad trip.’ Is it really a bad trip? Or is it a certain perception being revealed that may not be serving you any longer?
What I have learned over the years is the more we resist those parts of ourselves, the longer and more powerfully they exist. The truth can be really difficult to accept sometimes. But the truth will set you free — and so will love.
Leaning in and loving the parts of yourself that you don’t like and are hiding from is the only way to heal and be free. Plant and animal medicines shed light on all the parts of ourselves that have been hidden under the layers of beliefs, patterns, and indoctrinations since birth. Once you see, you can’t unsee, and that gives you the power to make different choices for yourself. Before, you didn’t know, hence why you made the choices you did. In the game of life, I feel that we get to re-connect different aspects of ourselves that we lost along the way, due to different experiences, because we did not know how to process those experiences. Being as gentle and loving with ourselves like we would with a baby is a super important process to move forward in a loving way. The more loving and nurturing we are with ourselves, the more life will be too. That is the truth! Give it a try and see for yourself. Perhaps the things that you dislike about yourself are your greatest gifts? Why do we not like all the parts of ourselves? Where did we learn that there were qualities about ourselves that were bad or wrong? We learned it from other wounded people, who felt the same way.
“Remind yourself that it is okay to not be perfect.”
Empowered and Thriving
I have an amazing mentor named Ginny, and I get coaching from her on a weekly basis. She is my pattern coach, and we dive deep into my beliefs, patterns, values, and so much more. It can be super uncomfortable and mind blowing at the same time. I love it so much, as I am committed to loving and understanding all aspects of myself. If you are interested in discovering aspects of yourself in a new way, her email is ginny@upliftyourself.com
“Taking a moment to figure out how you really feel, instead of letting old patterns decide for you, is one of the most authentic things you can do.”
Yung Pueblo
I want to share 10 fundamental patterns that she discovers with you — and I can relate to every one of them:
1. Polarized Thinking: Black or White thinking
2.Over-Generalization: Using one thing to judge the whole
3.Unfounded Suspicion: Making a guess, judgement, or prediction on sheer imagination
4. Negativity, Withdrawal, Inactivity, and Pessimism: Taking a view or attitude that is not constructive, is unbalanced, withdrawn, or lacking positivity
5. Fixed Expectations, False Assumptions, Taking Things for Granted:
Thinking things have to or should go in a certain way or the way you want or expect
6. Greediness: This pattern manifests as having an excessive desire to acquire more than what is necessary
7. Self- Centeredness: Viewing or considering things from only one’s perspective
8.Avoiding and Hiding: This pattern stems from the need to seek benefit and avoid harm, seek simplicity (easy solution) and avoid complexity (extra work)
9.Stubbornness: Strongly holding on to one’s own views or ways beyond reason
10. Fight for Dominance and Desire for Victory, Competitiveness: Adopting a competitive way to prove or pursue advantage in order to protect ‘dignity’
To Slay or Love Your Demons is really up to you. This is your journey, and please trust that whatever choice you make is perfect for where you are at in this very moment. No right or wrong, just life experience, learning and growing.
The next ZOOM call is Tuesday May 28, and the topic is The Power of Your Word. It is going to be awesome, please mark your calendars.
Upcoming Retreats:
May 17, 18, 19
June 7, 8, 9
Private Kambo, Jaguar and Bufo sessions available upon request
Self Application Kambo Course available upon request
Please email Treenz @ ibogajourney@protonmail.com
Website: www.ibogajourney.ca
Much love and appreciation to all of you,
Bassé,
Treena
