Have you ever experienced that? You had no clue what you were capable of until it happened — and it came out of no where? How about when you just sat back, listened and waited, and everything sorted itself out perfectly — and better than what you could have imagined? Like, holy shit balls! It is miraculous when we shut the fuck up and just allow life to happen without thinking we know it all.
Unsure about you, but my mind likes to know why, how, what, and when — and when I feel into that, it’s exhausting trying to figure everything out. I find this to be really frustrating, and it creates anxious energy, which is not real or true. I find that bringing my focus back to the present moment — by looking at my surroundings, taking a breath, or focusing on the things I’m grateful for — really helps. All that is real and true is the present moment. We can’t possibly know or predict the future or outcomes, until it happens. Leaning in and trusting that everything in life will work out perfectly (as it is supposed to) immediately relaxes and calms the nervous system. Try it out!
“Do earth a favor, don’t hide your magic.”
Yung Pueblo
I would love to hear from you. Please share how you got to experience something about yourself that you had no idea was possible. I will share first. My favourite Ayahuasca bartender was in town recently, and 3 months ago, I was gifted a medicine song that I sang in the ceremony. I practiced singing along with him for some time, and then I got inspired by another talented musician named Taylor one night, after watching his performance. I went home and wrote out the song, recorded it and sent it to the person who gifted it to me. I said, ‘Fuck it! Just do it!’ And holy cow, that was something. I also asked to practice singing the song with a beautiful small group, and he agreed. He asked me to continue singing the song in the next ceremonies he gifted, as well as another one that I have been practicing. This was incredibly scary for me — beyond words — and the anxiety was so intense, I could barely stand it or breathe, knowing that I had to perform in front of 30 people who were deeply in the medicine. (Yes I was in the medicine, too). Well, as it turns out, I can sing! Lol! What came out surprised me so much, as I had no idea I could sing. I love singing, and always sing at home or while driving, but did not know I had a voice that could touch others in a healing way. I am beyond grateful for this discovery, and for the fact that I was able to push past the incredible fear and do it anyway. It was so exhilarating to have experienced that. I want to thank the group for their support and love, as they were a huge part of it — and the belief of my dear Ayahuasca Bartender.